Yesterday was a harder day than usual. I was feeling disappointed, a little heavy hearted and uncertain. I did what I always do on days like that, because they will happen, I allowed myself to feel what I was feeling and sit in it. Yes, I admit there was a little bit of trying to escape it. However, for the most part I opted to not make any major changes or decisions until I had gained some clarity of some kind. Honestly the clarity I wanted did not come like some epiphany.
So, I went looking for it. I came across the name Jiddu Krishnamurti about three times in the last four or so days. Having something come up through synchronicity or mentally being drawn to something at least three times gets my attention. When you have my attention I follow where it may lead. I watched a couple of videos last night of his talking in interviews and explaining different ways to perceive and understand aspects of life. I actually gained a lot and it supported a bunch of what I feel to be true already. I will be going back to see what else I can gain from his wisdom. What struck me, what moved me most, was his profound compassion for all. His desire was to extricate all of humanity from their "bondage", to assist in bringing the freedom I so often speak of, to everyone.
I had to stop the video and grab one of my three notebooks always laying around and jot down my thoughts while watching. My mind grasped this idea in his speaking... The experiences we have, especially the difficult ones, allow us to understand truths that limit the expression of the individual 's true essence. This wisdom can be used to help others in those situations see a path to travel on, the way out. I have believed for a very long time my life and all my suffering will have been for nothing if I fail to help ease the pain in another if even in some small way.
Krishnamurti's foresight that it is our fundamental duty to help extricate anyone, all of humanity, through our own experience and understanding helped me to release my own uncertainty during a bad day. I was reminded of my purpose, reminded that while the path may be unclear, my focus should not be on certainties and the clarity of anything other than what I know to be true. My job as always is not to control the outcome but to show up and just allow.
On an interesting side note, I had a dream on 03/05/18 of an interaction with a deeply spiritual man who helped me to heal and gain balance within myself (I keep a dream journal).... I swear when I came across a picture of Jiddu Krishnamurti that is who I was speaking with. My feeling about this besides amazement at the thread of connection is that he was some kind of proverbial gate keeper... Curiouser and curiouser... Well hell, I will jump down that rabbit hole! I want to know what all of that means. I do not believe in accidents or coincidence, only synchronicity. Call it Collective Unconscious, call it Source, call it Divine Intelligence, but something is at work here far bigger than myself.
So, I went looking for it. I came across the name Jiddu Krishnamurti about three times in the last four or so days. Having something come up through synchronicity or mentally being drawn to something at least three times gets my attention. When you have my attention I follow where it may lead. I watched a couple of videos last night of his talking in interviews and explaining different ways to perceive and understand aspects of life. I actually gained a lot and it supported a bunch of what I feel to be true already. I will be going back to see what else I can gain from his wisdom. What struck me, what moved me most, was his profound compassion for all. His desire was to extricate all of humanity from their "bondage", to assist in bringing the freedom I so often speak of, to everyone.
I had to stop the video and grab one of my three notebooks always laying around and jot down my thoughts while watching. My mind grasped this idea in his speaking... The experiences we have, especially the difficult ones, allow us to understand truths that limit the expression of the individual 's true essence. This wisdom can be used to help others in those situations see a path to travel on, the way out. I have believed for a very long time my life and all my suffering will have been for nothing if I fail to help ease the pain in another if even in some small way.
Krishnamurti's foresight that it is our fundamental duty to help extricate anyone, all of humanity, through our own experience and understanding helped me to release my own uncertainty during a bad day. I was reminded of my purpose, reminded that while the path may be unclear, my focus should not be on certainties and the clarity of anything other than what I know to be true. My job as always is not to control the outcome but to show up and just allow.
On an interesting side note, I had a dream on 03/05/18 of an interaction with a deeply spiritual man who helped me to heal and gain balance within myself (I keep a dream journal).... I swear when I came across a picture of Jiddu Krishnamurti that is who I was speaking with. My feeling about this besides amazement at the thread of connection is that he was some kind of proverbial gate keeper... Curiouser and curiouser... Well hell, I will jump down that rabbit hole! I want to know what all of that means. I do not believe in accidents or coincidence, only synchronicity. Call it Collective Unconscious, call it Source, call it Divine Intelligence, but something is at work here far bigger than myself.
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