I have been taking the time to be introspective in order to suss out who I choose to be and what I choose to have in my life going forward. I have had to face in this time my own pain, my own self judgement, my own limitations. It has not been easy. I have had days where I had to just stop and rest, not think or look at anything for a little while and set it aside until I got my balance back. It all began simply out the feeling that I was unhappy and not willing to continue on as such. I decided I would face whatever was in the darker corners of my mind and my memories to escape the self imposed prison I was living in. Most of the time the confines of our prisons are all mental anyway.
Last night I made a new decision, I don't want to carry the burden of chaining myself to my past anymore. I consciously made the effort to release a few of the people I have felt changed my life for the worse over the years. I said "I release you and myself from the bondage to the past we have, the karmic bondage. Go with God. " I mentally let go of holding on to the idea I was chained or linked to this person through what had happened that hurt me. It doesn't matter if you believe in Karma, or energy, or even God for that matter, you can believe in the power of the subconscious, the power of the human mind to affect change through simply letting go of an idea or taking up a new one.
Making the choice to do so meant for me that I was ready to take on a new level of responsibility for my own life as well as make more progress in healing from my own suffering. So me laying in the bed in the dark at 2:30 am doing this was an act of hope, self care and healing. Some of the things that can transform who we are in relation to our own life are just about shifting mentally. Mental shifts have the ability to alter how we perceive our life, the events around us as they unfold, to alter how we feel and manage our feelings, as well as what actions we choose to take. I still have a few more people to stop blaming and holding onto but at least now I have made a start.
Last night I made a new decision, I don't want to carry the burden of chaining myself to my past anymore. I consciously made the effort to release a few of the people I have felt changed my life for the worse over the years. I said "I release you and myself from the bondage to the past we have, the karmic bondage. Go with God. " I mentally let go of holding on to the idea I was chained or linked to this person through what had happened that hurt me. It doesn't matter if you believe in Karma, or energy, or even God for that matter, you can believe in the power of the subconscious, the power of the human mind to affect change through simply letting go of an idea or taking up a new one.
Making the choice to do so meant for me that I was ready to take on a new level of responsibility for my own life as well as make more progress in healing from my own suffering. So me laying in the bed in the dark at 2:30 am doing this was an act of hope, self care and healing. Some of the things that can transform who we are in relation to our own life are just about shifting mentally. Mental shifts have the ability to alter how we perceive our life, the events around us as they unfold, to alter how we feel and manage our feelings, as well as what actions we choose to take. I still have a few more people to stop blaming and holding onto but at least now I have made a start.
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